THE GOAL OF LEVEL 1
The completion of LEVEL 1 -> STEP 7, is defined as the Mid Life Crisis or the Spiritual Emergency (emerging). The entire process of living through these first seven steps is to accumulate what humans consider BAGGAGE or divine considers unique life EXPERIENCES so that the soul can have a singular personality and a perspective that can grow the collective experience.
The following stories have been taken from my first book “A 94-Chakra Journey” where I documented my own physical symptoms that allowed me to recognize I had limited my life experience which leads to the EMERGING process of the spirit.
Throat chakra (Step 5)
To find the light at the end of the tunnel I first had to find out what the final physical manifestation of my spiritual emergency was. I had come to understand that the final element I needed to acknowledge and heal in myself was my problem with bulimia. When you begin limiting the flow of energy to your chakras you start to witness the impact it creates on a physical level. A physical manifestation of a problem means your entire energetic body system (physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual) has been compromised. At 16 I was also diagnosed HYPER THYROID then bounced between HYPER and HYPO. I controlled my eating, my binging and my body reflected this in swinging between extremes in my hormones.
Since this disease had taken hold of me I had wanted it to stop. Bulimia is an ugly and secretive disease. Later in life even with the love of a future husband, I had to reconcile with the younger version of myself who was striving for perfection and had feelings of unworthiness and fear. This isn’t a disease someone can help you out of; the wounds have to be mended on a personal level to hope for a healthy and non-relapse recovery. For me, the healing process started a few years before I fully gave up the disease. By twenty-three I had completely stopped this controlling disorder. One thing that helped me was making my struggles public so people were aware of my hidden shadow side. The unraveling process that I had discovered years later looked something like this: On a spiritual level, I needed to gain the lesson of transformation in order to grow into my next level of spiritual understanding. I dealt with a perception of myself that was based on a false analysis created by distorted energy in my lower chakras. I had no awareness of my true self and had created a persona I thought would be acceptable to most people’s worldview. I had created what could be called my lower self. On a mental level, I portrayed myself as the arrogant know-it-all who could do anything, be anything, achieve anything and had it all. Truthfully, most people would have agreed that this was spot-on who I was. On an emotional level, I had low self-esteem because I strived for perfection and nothing I did ever lived up to my perception of who I should be at that point in my life. On a physical level, I had a major ego and personality battle’s which translated into bulimia and self-imposed control over my life. Food was a source of control. I was dealing with my own physical transformation by trying to control my life through the food I ate. The control resulted in a constriction of my spiritual self that leads to a restricted sense of authenticity.