Why Does Spiritual Growth Have to be so Darn Mysterious?

If I can claim to know anything at all about the spiritual growth process it is that documenting notable findings and keeping a written journal above all else helps to put things into greater perspective. You find me here today at another cross road, hoping beyond all hope that if I document all of these recent finding in one place possibly my light bulb moment will happen and this dense fog settled around me will lift.

Let me start out by saying I have no clue what is to come in the following blog post and hope that by handing over my intention early on that only that which serves my greater purpose will come through now – that my answers will flow freely from these typing fingertips.

I am on day 10 of 54 so far in this second phase and am reallllllly ready for a break through. I have mentioned before that I have 5 fabulous guides that speak to me through clairvoyance, clairaudience…… all the clairs you can imagine. Last month I even received messages in my physical world, something new and exciting. Meaning I would ask a question and get immediate answers by way of things manifesting in my 3D physical world! So exciting. So my process thus far, starting in October has been to intentionally work with each of these guides during a month or two and really come to know their individual purpose in my life and get to know their energy apart from each other. This is so important for me because I have only thus far worked with them together as a group and have no real clue where one boundary ends and another begins.

Something else I have realized while starting on this monthly journey process is that this phase in my growth is dedicated to come to know myself, my highest self, above all else. I recognize that when someone claims to connect with guides, masters, teachers in another dimensions that they are truly just seeking wisdom from themselves on a higher plane. This is my world view and something I have accepted as truth for me, that is not to say it is truth for all, but something to think about. I believe that the guidance we seek from our guides, angles and other dimensional beings is really just a representation of our own lesson path that we have agreed to become aware of at a certain point. I believe that information is given freely by way of the higher self through a method that is easy for the receiver to know. In my case I do not think I have the wisdom yet to give certain guidance, but do believe that an angel of another dimension could relay that which is most appropriate for me to hear and chose to receive my guidance in such a way. Thus a contract to fulfill my lesson plan is created. Just a part of the whole that I have been working on for some time now.

This month my overall goal is to learn to see more clearly and to heal. These of course are broad set goal, as things have narrowed down and I have come to understand this month’s process more fully I understand that I am to leave my old self behind and move forward into a world that I am no longer attached to. Wow, right. This is the hardest thing I have been asked to do thus far in my spiritual evolution. I remember about a year back listening to a teacher talk about her own process and how she had already created one universe while on earth that is now functioning completely without any effort from her and she is now on her second universe creation. I remember hearing this and trying to visualize or conceptualize exactly what she mean by that. I tried my hardest to no avail. I had no clue what she was trying to say. Little did I know a year later this is exactly what I would be called to do. I know understand the meaning of what she was trying to express and it is the most complicated and trying thing I will do thus far.

I know that up to this point in my life I have created a persona that is Jenessee Roy. This persona has built a life and created stories that have served Jenessee’s best interest and it is time to allow that part of myself to carry on without any more focused attention from my higher self. Jenessee as the person you may or may not know will go on her everyday life just the same growing and cultivating whatever it was she set out to do, but the soul to Jenessee now must move on and detach focus from herself and move into a space that serves ever other universe that has been created within this multidimensional universe we live in. I no longer serve the universe solely created that is Jenessee, but it is time to serve the millions of universes that interact with that singular universe. Does this make sense at all?? So my goal is to detach from what serves Jenessee and move into the light of serving anyone who flows into or out of my life no longer being attached to anyone thing but to everything. This is so much easier said than done. How does one begin such a process…..

I was guided to start with my children. Let’s just say I have not yet achieved selflessness. Having a 3 and 4 year old will for sure drive you crazy on the slowest of days. Try to lose yourself in the face of a 3 and 4 year old and you get me as I am right now, sick for almost a week now and with the fog still settled all around me. Every morning I am faced with the 4 year old who’s emotions are running wild and try to lose myself in the flow of his universe and 5 minutes later I am right back into Jenessee and her needs and her wants. Why is it so hard to lose yourself and your needs completely in life. This is the question I have been asking myself for 10 days straight.

To go with the flow of life, that is my ultimate goal and it sounds so easy. To put this practice into full use is one of the most trying and complicated things I have ever tried to accomplish. I have underestimated selflessness and believe this is why my body resorts to sickness to prove the power of blocks and control. I intend to stay heart centered and clear. With clarity and groundedness we can begin to feel the energy of what surrounds us. Once we feel into the energy of our ever moving and flowing field we can begin to allow emotions to run through us being a bystander to their usually tempting lure. Once we can move through emotional situations with clarity and flow we can then begin to hold light, love, and space for those around us. By giving up the universe of yourself and moving into the multi-universe you chose to become a light for others solely by choosing to hold a frequency that other will be able to feel from miles away from you. Choosing to become a beacon for others takes practice and patience two things I still have still 45 more days to get the hang of.

More coming soon!

When is it a Rabbit Hole and When is it Something Else?

For the past few days I have had a fly in my office......

I am not sure the life span of a fly, but would have to think it's just about this ones time to move along.

So here's our dance, I sit at my desk and work for a few hours and then all of a sudden out of no where this fly drops in and won't leave me alone. Face, hands, computer.... Basically everything I need to focus. He's there and then gone not to be seen for the rest of the day.

Day two, it's a new day and after our first encounter the previous day I sit at my desk and again out of no where this fly is demanding my attention again he just will not leave me alone. Being the gentle spiritual being I am, I decide to stop what I am doing and engage Mr. Fly. Let me paint this picture, Mr. fly lands on my index finger and I look him in the eyes trying to match his frequency (haha even a stretch for me) and ask, what he is trying so hard to tell me?!? I get nothing and let him go on flying around my head, hands and computer.

Day three, today. I sit down and start working at my desk time goes by and half way through my day like before Mr. Fly comes out of the blue and will not leave me alone. This time I see he's got a pattern or what looks like some interesting moves so I ask again, ok Mr. Fly what are you trying to tell me. He flys to my iPad and stares at me..... I said ok what's in here that I am missing. He then flys to my big computer and dances around my open outlook mail account, so I said ok my email on my iPad? He then lands back on my iPad while I go through my private email. At this point I have no clue what I am looking for get frustrated and move on, Mr. Fly disappears.

Now at home after day three the kids are eating and I have a few minutes to myself to look back at my personal emails. I go right to where I left off with Mr. Fly earlier and see some blog postings from some people I follow. As I am deleting the 20 new ones I received, one catches my eye so I open it and read the answers to some questions I had been contemplating over the past few days. Specifically my question was why I had been getting such conflicting answers from my guides lately. I read this and find it very comforting. I move to the very next email and see its a web seminar from one of my favorite teachers Matt Kahn who's messages are all about staying heart centered, I feel my frequency raising! I move to the next email and see its an old teacher inviting me to attend an intuitive awakening class! Oh my gosh realizing I just didn't get far enough in my personal email account I smile and look up and out the window in front of me and see a rainbow coming right up out of the top of a tree and shooting straight into the sky in so much fall bathed light. I laugh out loud to my self and think could that fly really have been a little messenger of the light...... Seriously a trip down the rabbit hole today. I guess the true test will be to see if he visits me tomorrow or if he's chosen to visit one of you?!?

Energy of Colors

Anyone interested in energy work has sometime or another referenced a website or book that explains what the energy of a specific color means. Weather it's reading auras, exploring chakras or even looking into religious text and paintings every philosophy has a color code, and it can all be a bit confusing.

Before we go further here are just a few of the examples you may find when going through different sources on the above mentioned color philosophies. We will get deeper on how to determine what system is best for you to work with later.

Aurora Color Meanings:
Www.the-aura-expert.com (aura info from this site)

Aura Color RED: lifeforce, survival, raw passion, anger, frustration, menstruation, determination, sense of importance, feeling overwhelmed by change

Aura Color ORANGE: sensuality, physical pleasure, emotional self-expression, creativity, lacking reason, lacking self-discipline, health, vitality

Aura Color YELLOW: mental alertness, analytical thought, happiness, optimism, child-like, ego driven, thinking at expense of feeling

Aura Color GREEN: healing, peace, nurturing, new growth, fear, need for security, jealousy and envy, balance

Aura Color BLUE: verbal communication, freethinking, relating to structure and organization, emphasis on business, male energies, sadness, possibilities

Aura Color PURPLE: wisdom, authoritative, female energies, matriarchal, sense of superiority, controlling, imagination, intuition

Aura Color BROWN: grounding, down to earth, practical, male energies, invalidating, emphasizing body and denying spirit, feeling worth-less

Aura Color BLACK: issues relating to death, hatred, lack of forgiveness, unresolved karma, dark intentions, shadow games, needing compassion for self

Aura Color PINK: self-love, tenderness, female energies, gay energies, emphasis on physical appearances, being 'nice' at expense of being 'real'

Aura Color WHITE (CLOUDY): New Age or religious energy, lacking consciousness, a cover-up, denial, being 'good' at expense of being 'whole'

Aura Color WHITE (CLEAR LIGHT): very high spiritual vibration, godly, divine, inspiration, seeing spiritual big picture, compassionate

Aura Color GOLD: high spiritual vibration, integrity, respect, freedom, clearseeing, integrating spirit and body, creating as spirit

Chakra Colors:

Red: Root Chakra
Dysfunctional Fear, Anziety, Lazy
Balanced Grounding, Family, Presence

Orange: Sacral Chakra
Dysfunctional Lacking Emotion, Obsessive, Guilt
Functional Fluidity, Relationships, Passion

Yellow: Solar Plexus Chakra
Dysfunctional Low Self Esteem, Arrogance, Shame
Functional Self, Willpower, Transformation

Green: Heart
Dysfunctional Depression, Co Dependance, Grief
Functional Humanity, Compassion, Balance

Blue: Throat
Dysfunctional Introverted, Gossiping, Deceit
Functional Voice, Expression, Purification

Purple: Third Eye
Dysfunctional Denial, Obsession, Illusion
Functional Mind, Intention, Clairvoyance

Lilac/Gold: Crown
Dysfunctional Spiritual Disbelief, Attachment, Dissociation
Functional Higher Self, Purpose, Transcendence

How to know what Color Energy system is your system?

Honestly during the performance of my work I have come to understand that whatever we believe will work for us will work. So if you are trying to figure out how to change your energy or read someone else's and you adopt one of these classification systems it will work for you just fine. If you want to experience the truest level of knowing your own energy, your guides energy and the energy of those closest to you I suggest adopting your own unique classification system.

When you want to work with color frequencies first start out by testing colors on your body. If you are sensitive to energy this will be an easy thing to do. Pick a color you are drawn to and wear it for a few days in a row. Take that color and when wearing it see if you can feel any mood, temperature or vibratory changes in your being. Just intentionally becoming more aware of color energy you are wearing will allow you to experience a difference in your vibratory rate. Take note of what you experience and if it seems like a complimentary energy to your being then next ask you guide who is connected to this energy to step forward. Use whatever meditation technique you normally do and call your guide forth that connects to you through this color energy. When you specifically find an energy and guide that connect to you in a complimentary way start to incorporate that new color into your life and take good notes in your journals about what things start to manifest into your life when connected into these frequencies. By doing this you will create your best color guide that is most effective for you and how you work.

Dimensions

If you have discovered that you are highly intuitive, emphatic or clairvoyant you may start your quest of self-discovery. Seeking out what it all means and how it all works.

I don't claim to have the answers or descriptions you may need for your own journey, because to tell the truth my journey has not even begun to scratched the surface. I will however freely share some of my understandings and experiences so that you may possibly understand your own interesting adventure along the way. Know that we all seek in different ways and that gives us different perspectives and understandings of the information we come across.

Dimensions are an interesting twist to this whole metaphysical thought process. I have heard very recently from some of the mystics out there that our world is shifting from a 3 dimensional world into a 5 dimensional world. They say our world was created from the big bang and instantly created into existence the first dimension then after time a second dimension was created and finally what we know today to be the third dimension was created. What I have heard is that currently our planet is making a 5th dimension (it has since the third dimension was created) I assume that from the platform I heard this from (very scientific) that this is a "no brainier" understanding of how our earth is continually growing. From a metaphysical approach it helps to validate what the mystics have been claiming for years, that our human existence is changing and our consciousness is evolving.

How I was taught the Dimensions is as follows:
Starting at the 1st chakra

1st chakra root - 3rd dimension
2nd chakra sacral - 4th dimension
3rd chakra solar plexus - 5th dimension
4th chakra heart - 6th dimension
5th chakra throat - 7th dimension
6th chakra third eye - 8th dimension
7th chakra crown - 9th dimension
8th chakra (3 feet above head) - 10th dimension
9th chakra (10 feet above the head) - 11th dimension
10th chakra (60 feet above the head) - 12th dimension

Most of humanity is experiencing a shift in consciousness moving from the 3rd dimension into the 5th dimension (as explained above also with the earth moving into this energy). My understanding is that as energetic beings we have made contracts (before we ever incarnated into this lifetime) to elevate our consciousness so that we may align with our unique planetary frequencies. So those who are not meeting this planetary shift in frequency and energy will go through experiencing sickness and other life challenges that are necessary to help them evaluate where they are in life and how in harmony they are with the life forms around them. Everyone has made the decision to evolve with this planetary shift, but given free will we all make choices as conscious human beings to continue evolving with our change in frequency or we chose to move on and try again.

Dimensions have been most intriguing for me because a lot of what I accomplish in meditation has to do with connecting my frequency with the dimension I seek out.

4th dimension - space time continuum. The forth dimension allows you to remote view the past or future. You do not leave your body for this you simply higher your vibration to the 4th dimension frequency and set an intention to discover past lift or future life information.

5th dimension - Astral Travel similar to the 4th dimension, but here you take your astral body so that you are able to interact with your surroundings in the space time you wish to seek. Also people who die on earth suddenly go here (some times) or people who have near death experiences.

6th dimension - Heaven. This is where we go to school after we die. Here we learn lessons about our past lives and make contracts for future lives. Our soul academy you could call it.

7th dimension - Here are the beginning level of guides. Simply put this is where our guides start to show up and depending on what is going on in your life you could have a 7th level, 8th level or 9th level guide show up for you to help you assist in whatever your blueprint or contract plan was. Also the Akashic records are in this dimension.

8th dimension - Another level of guides and angles reside here.

9th dimension - Guides who preside over groups of people or groups of guides reside here. Also Angels.

10th dimension - Healing this is where most energy healers go to cure major physical human body ailments. This is where we can unlock the universal healing energy

11th dimension - Most people have to have their guides bring them into the 11th dimension. There are people who have their own cords that connect up the lower dimensions and through into the 11th, but this takes time, energy and a loss of fear, you must support your connections as any lack of this will prevent cords of connection from attaching.

12th dimension - This is called the Matrix, God or the universal connectedness of all beings.

To raise your vibrational frequency to connect into these dimensions you can always call on your highest and most loving guide from the light to assist you with moving into a specific dimension for learning and development. It is a fun practice to give a try and remember to be open to how you receive the information you get. Sometimes it is hard to let go of our expectations and when you are not open to something new you tend to distort the messages or information you receive.

New Moon Energy

Another new moon has come and gone and it's a time to set goals and intentions for new projects. Every new moon brings us energy to reflect on our needs and create space to allow these thing to flow freely into our lives. During this October new moon I took time to connect with my guides and set specific intentions around a big exciting project I intend to manifest very soon. I wouldn't necessarily say I was surprised to receive the message I did from one of my guides tonight, but it was a bit perplexing considering the energy of the evening.

From Jophiel.......

Human life can be compared to the petals of a rose. As the rose ages with time and the petals begin to dehydrate and loosen, one by one the petals release and fall to the ground leaving nothing, but a steam. This doesn't happen all at once, but over the course of the roses short life. In your own life you can compare this releasing process to how you go about achieving your own milestones. You set goals and once a goal is reached, it is forgotten and allowed to pass where by you move onto the next milestone until one day you reach the end of the line and are standing on a bear steam wondering where all the petals have gone. It is with in all of your capabilities to treat every day and every petal with kind regard so that not a day goes by where you don't extract that pure and true essence from every situation and each milestone. Acknowledge the journey of life and see each milestone as the blessing it is intended to be, when you live for the moment you extract a pure essence that never leaves you standing alone it follows you always as the hint of rememberance that fills every beat of your heart.

Got to love wisdom from Jophiel!

Grounding Platform

In all of my guided meditations I refer to the grounding platform. The grounding platform is an important part of my mediation. Initially it helped me to drop my focus towards my internal body and allowed my soul to flow more into my body and out of my head. Since my first introduction to my grounding platform it has become much more than just a way to ground.

I was guided to call out to the universe and ask for a platform to present itself to me. When I did this I received the image of a star (very geometric) and over it was a prism (my internal temple or core) I found this an easy visual to connect with as I have always been attracted to stars. In my ego brain that is why I though I used the image of the star, because it was something familiar and comfortable. I would soon learn that my history of star attraction was more than just visual, that it had a reason and that was to lead me to this point in life when I could actually close off my mind and receive their information and guidance.

It took over 100 hours of meditation to start putting together the true meaning of my star platform, so let's start at the beginning. A grounding platform is something that you use in meditation for grounding. Along with being a visual platform to connect to it should also be a part of your own soul blueprint or your unique frequency. Initially I understood this to mean that it was going to be used for protection, since in grounding we are looking to get our bodies and minds into a safe place to receive. I later came to find out that the meaning of your platform can and will hold so many more connections to your destiny and purpose.

After many meditations here are some of the experiences that I had. I was in meditation, and was usually lead by one of my guides to different areas to retrieve information I needed. This specific meditation I was greeted by Jesus who walked me on my rainbow road (this is the method of transportation I have always received in meditation to get to different places/experiences) he walked me to an area in the universe where there was a vortex of stars waiting for me. He told me this was my home and anything I needed to know I could retrieve from sitting with the stars. I would enter the vortex and be greeted by so many voices, I could ask questions or just receive their vibration. Believe it or not this was not after this I still didn't make the connection.

The next big experience I had was on a trip through the great central sun where I moved through the star gate to meet my home or place of origin. Again I was in deep space surrounded by stars (maybe on a planet, maybe not....) and I received a gift from this existence. I accepted a gift and witnessed as thousands of stars moved towards my physical body, as the stars entered my head they turned into green dust and permitted every cell of my being. I watched as the star dust moved into my grounding platform and completely illuminated and activated my own platform. As this happened I had the realization that I could be with my true nature and with my home no matter where I went. This gave me such peace and clarity, but I still didn't realize exactly what this meant.

The final piece to this puzzle. After even more meditations and finally trying desperately to work on waking/walking meditation I realized that by working so much with my grounding platform the entire time I was getting myself ready for this final transition into receiving guidance and being able to receive and connect anytime. By bringing so much of my soul blueprint and existence into my grounding platform all I have to do is acknowledge my platform and connect down to this and I am in a completely safe and personalized space that is sacred to me and my life's journey.

I hope you take the time to connect and understand your own platform as by doing so you can open yourself to your own purpose and destiny!

And So It Is!

Light and Shadow

How do you find light in the shadow? On my path of personal healing I had a pivotal shift when I learned that everything going on around me was not only a masterful performance being put on just for me, but also an opportunity to raise up and learn my significant life lessons.

So what is shadow? In a dualistic world shadow is the dark, it is the denied, it is the rejected, it is the part of you that goes unrecognized and hidden. In a harmonious united consciousness, shadow is what allows you to grow, evolve, it gives light a darkness to shine in, it is the part of you that needs acceptance in order to transmute.

Using the mirror to transmute your shadow into light.

The mirror technique was the best and most helpful process I employed while going through my own healing process. When I decided to start working with my energy on a personal level the easiest way to acknowledge where I was blocking or held shadow aspects of myself was to use this powerful and easy technique. First you have to be ready to completely flip your world upside down, and second you have to be ready to have the veil of unconsciousness removed.

If you are ready to start your own healing process I suggest you start one morning and agree to be your own third party. Agree to look at the world through a mirror, or in other terms watch the world around you unfold in a way that is meant just for you, to teach you more about yourself. So for example you wake up and your car won't start. Typically what is your reaction? The point of this exercise isn't to change your behaviors, but to start witnessing your reactions internal and external as if you had a mirror up in front of you all day so that you could watch and analyze your every action.

When I started this healing process for myself I worked a week at a time through each of the chakras one by one. This was my process for many reasons, but there are other ways to behaviorally work through all of your shadow aspects. I suggest if you aren't so familiar with chakras, possibly select a well known psychologist and use there emotional stages or some other esoteric medium, like yoga and the many bodies, or even element theory, or astrology. Whatever has called your name for ages now will be your guide to help you decode the different stages you move through during this process.

With chakra theory when I started in my root chakra, I found many reactions and emotions and mental blocks over such things as family, grounding, presence, security, fear. My sacral chakra held onto many manipulation contracts. What I would do is anytime an emotion popped up in me that didn't feel like my authentic self or the emotional state I needed or wanted to have I would instantly flip the mirror on myself. Example: my employees don't want to do anything for themselves they complain about their work load and are acting very entitled. This makes me mad or gives me charge, (charge in your body is the best way to know when you are blocking or dealing with some form of shadow). By using the mirror technique I flip the situation back on myself. In this reality my employees are going about there day unaffected by my situation and my anxiety or anger over the situation is only affecting me. Being that I am the only person charged over this situation what is it in ME that is being, denied, rejected, unrecognized.... By flipping the mirror and situation on my own life I use the catalyst of entitlement and look into my own life where I might have entitlement issues or potentially where I won't let anyone around me help with anything, so the opposite of entitlement. When you find these situations pop up in you own life and can emotionally put yourself in the recipient of your emotional energies shoes you may then be able to allow yourself the relief of this catalyst and release it from your shadow. By giving acknowledgment to yourself and the others involved and by learning the lessons you transmute this energy into wisdom and it becomes released from your karmic energy meaning you no longer have to deal with these shadows.

I love this process because you become an active participant in you own story. You will be given many opportunities daily while going through this process to transmute shadow. If you are not ready to face the dark areas of your life I give here a warning because everything less that happiness, joy, and love will present itself to be released. If you aren't ready to release, blame, guilt, deception, shame, and other shadow elements from your life this might not be the process for you. If you are ready for joy, happiness, compassion, light, and forgiveness in your life then I highly encourage you to take part in your own mirror practice and welcome you to the world of higher frequency!

And So It Is!

Frequency

Don't quote me here, don't even read this if your not of sound mind to discern between thought provoking questioning and your own interpretation of assertion.

Being entranced with chakra theory and dimensional understanding, I have been asking myself lately how the 12 chakras connect with the 12 dimensions and how any of this relates to the understanding of time/space.

It is my belief that our 12 (core pillar) chakras connect with the 12 dimensions of existence. It is also my belief that each of these chakras holds a different frequency. Being that I healed my own current life incarnation using chakra theory and know in detail what it looks like to be living/stuck in a specific chakra, I seem to be able to look out into the world and see many around me who are living in specific realities related to the chakras they are currently learning from. I see a husband currently moving from a sacral chakra to a solar plexus understanding of the world. I see others around me dominated by the sacral chakra or stuck in the root. I have much compassion for all souls in this world and have much understanding of what it means to be growing through or stuck in a chakra. I have been frustrated many times during conversations before with those in different frequencies/chakras than I, and have come to understand how and why these separations occur.

As recent a six months ago I was blessed with the ability to see clearly, with detached acceptance as I like to say. I learned the ability to detach from outcome and accept all as it is, with no hope for change, complete acceptance. Once I learned this ability, I learned that language and meaning of language changes depending on what chakra you are in and what your current world view is. My perception of the world broadened as I personally elevated up in frequency through the chakras and what once stimulated me or gave me a charge came to have no bearing once living in the higher realms of chakra existence. I still have conversations to this day where I momentarily forget my place in this world and realize I am not clued into who and what frequency I am talking to. I then adjust my method of communication to address the other soul in their current life state.

Back to time/space and frequencies. I have come to question exactly what it means to evolve into a higher frequency and what this means to be living in all realities, all times, and all existences at the same time. If you haven't thought about this before just considering this can literally make you head spin. So I began to question what the frequencies, chakras, and time/space can have to do with each other and how it can even work together. Here is my hypothesis.

As we raise through our chakra frequencies we actually become, shift, and transition into our higher frequency. If you follow string theory or eternalism it can be said that we are living all frames of time at once, past, present and future. My favorite reference is the latest Men in Black movie where the kid can read every strand of time at once and has to constantly recalibrate what is going to happen next by watching what is presently happening. Even when this kid knows what is happening he still has five potential outcomes he is working with and has to sort through to try and figure things out.

I question if when we shift our consciousness from one "world view" or as I call it a chakra lesson, do we then literally move from one dimension of existence into a higher dimension. So forget the body/vehicle you are here in because that is just your vehicle. No imagination that your soul energy is living out 12 potential lives all at once, life one is very root chakra or concerned only with materialistic things like, food, house, survival..... Now imagine life 12 is living in pure co-existence with source completely loving and accepting a co-creator, the highest version of yourself possible. Now when your consciousness shifts from one life view or understanding to another do we actually move from one dimension to another? Does our energy change into another strand of existence that was just waiting for us to wake up into it? The more I try and wrap my brain around time/space and string theory the more I think we shift between these different dimensions constantly. When the mystics say the goal is to find stillness and peace in every moment is that because the highest version of ourselves can stay rooted in that higher frequency of existence when we elevate and stay calm?

I have listened to these mystics say we are all transitioning into a higher frequency/dimension and those unwilling to change will be (....fill in the blank they all say different things....) now when the majority of vehicles/humans transition into higher dimensions of planetary existence and find stillness does that mean we bring that energy to ourselves and allow others to see and feel that existence. When this happens can we help bridge others into a higher dimension because they can no longer exist in a lower frequency or is it because our love and acceptance allows them to release into a higher frequency. Or do they chose not to transition at all. Lastly do we have the option to stay with those unwilling to transition and help them see the light or are we called to move onto an existence where all is one?

I love pondering this riddle of existence, and love playing the game of life.

And so it is!

Chakra Meditation

Bliss-ed Out with another GREAT Meditation!

Starting with breath work, I found my deep yogi breath and began working the breath through my body. Focusing on breathing into and out of my different chakra points I really began to slow down my thoughts and narrow my attention. Moving from the Root up to the Crown, I then set an intention. My intentions lately have all been about uniting all aspects of my self with source so again I chose this to acknowledge for the practice.

The next phase started to open up my holographic right brain. We do this in meditation to clear our channels to receive. Starting with small images first and then moving up to harder imager, like visualizing yourself. So I began visualizing the energy from my body moving into a bubble that hovered above my naval. Anyone familiar with astral projection will recognize this practice. Using breath I moved my energy from inside my physical vehicle into my bubble above my naval. I used as many deep breaths as necessary to feel like I have fully transitioned my energy.

Next I started to visualize myself from outside my body. If you are experienced this can be done just looking down and witnessing you body below your bubble. If it is harder for you to visualize you can envision yourself in a mirror. Once I have my body awareness then I started to work with my chakra points. Finding each chakra on my body and allowing it to show itself to me. I would use activation points around the chakra to bring more feeling and awareness to each chakra, then find the chakra itself. This part is done actively, but with no expectation.

After working through the entire body I moved back down to the root and again stated my intention. Mine being to become united as a whole being. Next using your intention to receive, I activated each chakra and let it present a message to me either through images, messages, or sensations. To activate the chakra you can envision a wand touching it, or your own telepathic voice telling it to reveal itself to you, or you can visualize yourself touching it to activate. Be open to the messages for these things you receive can be figured out later, just be open to everything that is happening now.

My messages:

Root- Native American Indians, chanting one in particular (I have an Indian guide and this was not the same)

Sacral-Mother Mary, said she was protecting my inner child in the sacrum

Solar Plexus- Mars God Of War, so typical :)

Heart- Doves first, hundreds of them then Venus or Aphrodite came out

Throat- Whales and Dolphins

Third Eye- Buddha, Confucius & Gandhi

Crown- I saw all of the angles, and Devine beings in the heavens staring down at me with so much love and acceptance.

I then asked how these messages could help me and was shown my chakra pillar and the caduceus of energy weaving up and through each of these energetic centers. I saw the energies of these Devine messengers get intertwined with the energy of my own chakra pillar. I understood this to mean that all I am is completely Devine. Although I haven't sat with each of these images individually for greater meanings, I do understand my intention of unity with source was given to me in meditation today. I will move forward knowing I am all that I am and that is completely Devine!

And so it is!

Shamanic Journey

SHAMANIC JOURNEY

If you haven’t yet experienced a Shamanic Journey, I hope the story that follows will inspire you to find a practitioner who can guide you through your own amazing journey. I request your feedback on the symbolism of my own experience as some of the right brain holographic messages I received that day have still have not been made totally clear. I would like to take a moment to thank my own guide, Jnana Gowan www.powerhed.com for her expertise and passion, she dedicated so much to our class and each students experience.

The process started with a gentle guided meditation. Jnana asked us to surround ourselves with a familiar memory of nature or to find a place that was harmonizing to us that we could visualize and connect into. She then asked us to call out to our animal spirit guides. After receiving a brief visit from Jnana’s guide, a beautiful and strong black panther who’s name I now forget, I watched as the holographic version of myself closed its eyes and sent out a mental call asking my own animal spirit guide to come out and greet me. As soon as my eyes opened I saw standing before me a brilliantly colored and prideful looking peacock! I just sat back and watched as it started at me almost waiting for my next move or question. Thankfully at this point Jnana spoke in the background and asked us to ask our guides their names. As the question was forming in my head I already received the telepathic response, Swami Sitakahara. Of course this is my phonetic spelling of the name I heard that day, I am sure this is nowhere close to what the true spelling would be. Swami and I sat at the top of this floating island on opposite sides of a reflecting pool just staring at each other. To this day he has never spoken to me, he shows up in my journeys to simply be there as a guide to help me find whatever it is I am seeking.

At this point during our Journey the background drumming music started getting intense and the pace of everything picked up tremendously. The last words that Jnana spoke or at least the last words I needed to hear from Jnana were to follow our guides and that is where my story begins. With the drums rapidly beating in the background I watched as Swami took off running towards the middle of the reflecting pool, of course I chased right after him. We fell right through the middle of the pool and like a vortex got sucked straight through to the bottom of the island where we were shot out the other side. We continued fall in this cylindrical cascade of water that was surrounded by nothing, but air. The water ended up plowing into the surface of the earth and depositing us into a cave below the earth’s surface. Swami and I emerged from the pool of water onto a ledge inside the cave. The cave was light by torch light which made everything very intense and almost palpable, Swami started to run towards the edge of the cave where the torches lined the interior walls. He walked behind a curved wall and disappeared I ran after him and found myself falling down a dark obis that fell deep into the earth. Together Swami and I fell down deeper and deeper into the earth’s core where we finally hit the bottom. Again Swami took off at a run. Running through tight curving cave walls, Swami finally stopped right at the opening to a room where he waited for me. Swami didn’t go into the room, but curious as always I decided to see what it held. As soon as I decided to enter the room I lost all control over my body and was pulled right into the middle of the cave. Appearing on either side of my body was the Indian God Ganesha showing himself as an elephant with large intimidating tusks and the Indian Goddess Kali. Ganesha and Kali put a big bubble around my body and both began to blow purple mist into my bubble they did this until the purple mist was all around me. Kali then started to throw her daggers at me. This was not intimidating to me and it did not seem scary at the time. I then saw Swami appear at the opposite side of the cave. He gave me that long look and I knew it was time to go. I popped out of the bubble and moved towards his body. Swami again took off at a run and I followed him up and down another set of tight dark underground tunnels. Swami and I make a turn and find ourselves in the middle of another room this room was filled with rainbows. I started to absorb the rainbows into my body, I watched as they would enter into and out of my mouth. I was eating the rainbows and then spitting them back out. They were bouncing off the walls everywhere and all I wanted to do was make as much contact with them as possible. Again I saw Swami out of the corner of my eye and knew it was time to move on. This time our pace was not so much of a run, but a enthusiastic dancing parade. Swami’s tail feathers were hypnotizing me moving back and forth with the beats of the drums so much so that I felt I had to emulate him, so with my hands behind my back I began the peacocks dance down the torch lit hallways. We then came to a small narrow room, again Swami did not enter the room, but waited for me to decide to go in or not. I walked into the room and saw at the end of the rock formation was Buddha. Buddha was floating with his legs crossed waiting for me to approach him. Saying nothing he placed lotus peddles in the palms of my hands and as I sat there holding the exposed flowers he began to open his mouth. Out of his mouth he blew hundreds of lotus flowers all around my body and completely filled our room with the beauty of these petals. After the flowers settled on the floor i knew my time was done and I got up and walked to where Swami was waiting for me. We took our decent further into the earth, this time we went sliding down a muddy path then ended up falling through a large black hole and fell right into a boat. I knew instantly that we had landed in the river styx. At first I faced the front of the boat where Swami sat looking out onto the waters Swami wouldn't look at me so I decided to turn around. I then saw sitting behind me the grim reaper, he was steering the boat with one hand and holding a scythe with the other. I looked at his hood, I couldn't see his head and asked what do I need to know? He responded you are going to die, I laughed and said I know that tell me something I don't know. He responded saying, you need to help people. He then grabbed my hands and drew in them with his boney finger, using one finger he drew into each palm separately. The tip of his finger created these swirling purple vortexes right in the center of my hand. He then put my palms together and said I need to sit in meditation with my head back and my feet and palms together. He then returned back to steering the boat. Our boat pointed towards the shore and we began to dock. Swami and I exited the boat right next to a big Bon fire. We sat next to the fire staring into it when a fox stuck his head through and stared right at me. The fox then quickly turned and ran down a dark alley not to be seen again. Knowing my journey had come to an end, I then started to make my way back up to the earths surface with Swami and found my place back at the floating island.

This experience was my first full blown symbolic experience where the journey laid itself before me with no previously conceived expectations. I often reflect back to this experience with such love and openness and truly hope everyone can have such a moving, vivid journey.

And so it is!

Grounding

In meditation it is so important that you begin each practice with a grounding. In my experiences meditating I was told over and over by teachers and intuitive's that I was not accomplishing correct grounding.

This is not the thing you want to hear when one you think you have it down, and two they never tell you how to accomplish it for yourself they just tell you your not grounded. So after many years of trying different techniques and seeing different teachers I finally was told I had it down and was securely grounding in my meditation.

That technique I would like to share with you. I will start out saying that I hope thus technique gets you started and like me you might have to evolve it over the years to match your need and frequency moving forward.

GROUNDING:

Start by sitting in a comfortable position with your feet on the ground. Make sure your head is supported and you feel comfortable. Hands allow to lie open along the sides of the body or place hands in Guyana Mudra for grounding. Next start to visualize yourself standing on top of the earth. See the gridded energy line with in the earth and acknowledge their power. Next visualize your grounding platform. This can be of your own making don't rush it try and let something come to your minds eye naturally. Next visualize yourself stepping onto this platform one foot at a time. As you life your foot really actively feel that foot being sucked down like a magnet on to your grounding platform. If your know meridian points focus your attention on kidney point 1 bubbling springs. Then repeat with the other foot. Now that you are on your platform you want to move it on top of the warts surface and allow the platform to magnetize down on top of the earth and settle into some of those energetic lines running with crystalline energy. After you secure this connection to earth, we will start to call up earths crystalline energies through the platform through your feet and into your body. Performing the ring of earth we will call this crystalline earth energy into your body and create pools of earth energy inside your body to stabilize and bring you balance and stillness.

Ring of earth:
Start out pulling the energy into the bottom of the foot through kidney 1. This point is on the bottom of the ball of the foot right in between the first and second toe about and inch down from the top of the foot. While working with this energy I like to visualize it take the form of a plant like a vine of ivy moving through me or roots of a tree or a stem of a flower. Whatever image works for you go ahead and use. Next allow this energy to move to the point behind the ankle, on the lower back outside of the ankle. Let the energy pool here and allow the flower or roots to extend out of this point creating a pool of connected energy. Next move up the middle of the leg and to the point on the very middle of the backside of the knee. Again let your flower blossom out here at this point. Next move all the way up the inside of the body and to the points on the sides of the top of the clavicle bone. Allow two more flowers to blossom here. Then move up to the point on the bottom of the Adam's apple on the front and back of the body. Allow two more roots or flowers to grow. Then move to the points under the ears right where the earlobe hits the side of the head. Allow two more earth energy pools to create here. Then finally these two points merge into one at the top/crown of the head where the energy will exit your head and move up your spiritual chakra pillar to your higher self. Then working in reverse follow and trace this energy line back Down the body to your feet and back into earth. I do this two to three times before I move on.

After I work with the earth energy I usually visualize myself growing legs of light where I visualize my legs extending down into the earth and actively pushing the grounding platform down into the earth. I do this active push through the earth for three or so breaths. Actually I look for a source of white light that I connect into with my platform then I stop.

Next I start my invocation to call in my guides. This could be different for everyone, but as we are all the same these will work for you until you specifically connect to a group you chose to work with. Starting this process we must find our heart of hearts to work with first because this is where we will invite spirit in. I like to do a breathing technique with the heart first to open then I ask to receive. Start out using a circulating in through the nose out through the mouth breath. Then gather an emotional memory that creates feelings of joy and happiness something strong that you can focus on. Next using the breath move that memory from your mind into your beating heart. From here release the emotion tied to this memory and allow it to just be in the area of your heart that lies directly behind the emotional beating heart. Now find stillness. With you attention on this area of the heart I like to use the circulating breath to open and expend the heart. After a few breaths you are ready to invoke your help and protection for this meditation.

Finding your heart and using breath we are going to call in the Devine mother and Devine father (silver and gold) active pull this energy down your chakra pillar using the breath into the heart. Then moving up wards again invite in the mighty I am presence. Allowing this to settle into your sacred heart center. Moving up again calling in the ascended masters, the league of lights, the high councils, the christed civilization, the highest and most loving angles and saints, and the arch angles to be with you in your sacred space. Then down to the ascending Gia, the animal spirits, nature kingdom, devas, elemental forces, and crystalline energies. Then call in your own highest and most loving spirit guides to help you in this activation today. Then say I call you all here to be as one, to act as one to speak as one.

Lastly and most importantly depending on what kind of work your doing call on the crystalline energies to surround your body and auric field to protect you during your meditation. I usually say something to the effect of, so that I might meditate and pray under the Devine guidance of source. Visualize the ball of energy becoming a mirror ball so that you can see out but nothing can see in.

This brings you to a place of peace where you can then work actively on whatever other intentions you may have. Or you can sit and receive in quiet stillness.

A big influence on this grounding meditation for me was Meg Benedicte. I found her when I moved from my 7 body chakras to the 5 spiritual chakras. She opened up a lot in the way of higher connections for me.

And so it is!

Akashic Records part 1

Traveling to the AKASHIC RECORDS.

My first visit to the Akashic Records was performed while under the guide of one of my teachers. I have been very lucky to have access to these records during any active meditation where I chose to go there or gets surprisingly taken there. My teacher claims it is a part of most peoples ascension process to visit their Akashic Records, he also told me depending on your path you may like him, only visit the records a few times and never get back. One thing I have learned is that anything you desire to do you can do so if the records interest you I would encourage to set intentions durning your grounding process to visit your records.

The Akashic Records are a sort of library where all of your over souls information is stored. I have found that usually one of your spirit guides will be in charge of taking you here, I don't believe I have ever traveled here with out one of my guides accompanying me. Again this could be unique to my experience. I have never read any of Edgar Cayce's work, but understand he has done probably the most documented work in the records. In my experience everyone's records are different and almost like a unique signature or fingerprint of your own energy. I have been lucky enough to experience a few people in my life's records and each were so beautiful and completely different. Again in my experience the records were filled with books mostly, but there were other items like telescopes and other worldly items that I could move up to and receive information from. Most of the time I would go seeking out an answer to a question and would be drawn to a book somewhere in the vast library. Once I found the book I would move to a table where my guide was and open the book, I would then see pictures sometimes stationary like tarot cards that would require deciphering and sometimes the pictures would turn into movie reels once I found them. This part I know is specific to me and my progress in my spiritual development. I understand we are constantly changing in how we receive information during active meditation and depending on where we are and how we are being guided to develop is how we will receive information. I know sometimes people can organize their library as to how they are looking to learn and receive. An example of creating your library would be to request a chair and ask to watching a movie, or even ask to have a guide that acts as a librarian that can do most of the work for you.

The Akashic Records can give you information on your current life and anything from health to career guided information. Your records can also revel past lives and or future lives. Your records can show you all you incarnations that were here on earth and from other incarnations before earth and before our known forms in human bodies. Your records can show you the unique gifts and talents you bring with you from these previous existences. You can gain any information, as far as your mind can reach to ask a question you can get an answer here in the library.

GETTING TO THE RECORDS:

My process. After doing a strong grounding (see my meditation on grounding) I then start to get myself into my subconscious mind. I do deep breathing and wait to see some form of vehicle appear to me in my minds eye. My usual mode of transportation is a bubble. I allow the bubble to surround my body and enjoy the ride (side note a friend I know uses a hot air balloon, it can be any mode of transportation that appears to you). When in the bubble I allow my body to become very light and really higher my frequency by moving the energy deeper and deeper into my body (physical, mental, emotional and spiritual) then I wait for my next mode of transportation to appear. I see these different vehicles as my way to dive deeper and deeper into my subconscious brain and a deep state of receiving. The next thing that happens for me is my bubble docks onto a cloud. I then step onto this cloud and almost instantly see a walkway up to the stars. My walkway is a rainbow, but I am sure this could be any walk way. From here I sink my body into the frequencies of the colors of the rainbow which I actually acknowledge as healing to my spirit. Then I just lay in this rainbow as it moves me from the cloud in a blue sky into the universe and surrounded by stars. I ride the rainbow until I dock onto another cloud. This final cloud is alway holding a wooden door with my guide standing on the outside waiting to take me inside. I usually visualize interaction with my guide and then move into the door once the guid open the door. Then I am inside my records.

This is my process and yours I am sure will be completely different as we all have different needs to get us to that place of release and receiving. I don't access my records as much anymore, I was actually guided to take this rainbow to a new destination which I feel was moving me away from the records and into a new form of learning. I now walk the rainbow to a vortex of star energy. I now sit in the middle of what looks like a tornado of start. The stars now talk to me and give me information. I actually have these stars as my grounding platform in my grounding meditation. I feel this is part of my origin and feel this connects me stronger to the information I am supposed to receive now, but still love going to my records whenever I am guided to.

And so it is!

Shape Shifter

Having the absolute pleasure to spend 2 hours of my day today meditating with a group remotely, I am reminded that even the most seemingly obscure visions have profound meaning if given enough time and investigation.

Being the Equinox this meditation had a very specific intention for all involved. Our mission was to aligning the ever growing universal consciousness with the 5th dimensional ascending Gia. If you are unfamiliar with 5th dimensional ascending Gia, it pertains to the consciousness shift that humanity is currently experiencing. It is believed that at some point in the near future our race is going to chose to move into a 5th Dimensional universe where light and love are the basis of all living things. This place will have no need for ego based thoughts or desires. There is much theoretical science surrounding this concept right now everything from studies into the Higgs Boson, to the history of the universe and how it created it's current dimensions after the Big Bang. Our universe is going through some radical changes right now and it's so much fun being in a front row seat.

During this active meditation we did everything from removing the 3rd Dimensional matrix of illusion that blocks our ability to shift into a 5D reality, to increasing our receptive internal antenna connected into the pineal gland in the brain. Needless to say we were being quite active.

At one point while working on our bodies remotely we were guided to connect to our place of origin. I have done this before in the same type of meditative activation, and ended up returning to my body with a green emerald like crystal. It was a gift from the energetic beings of my place of origin. I meditated on this gift multiple times before it revealed itself to me. One day it didn't feel right to hold onto this crystal anymore so I let it go and it turned into green dust that surrounded my body. I later used this green dust to create a grounding platform for myself where I still to this day connect into before every meditation.

Today when instructed to receive gifts or messages from my place of origin, I didn't receive quite like I did last time. Instead I saw the energetic forms of these beings circle around me and begin to dance. I saw their energy shape-shift from half-bird half-man creatures, into wild animals, into pure energy, and into other beings I can't describe. It was beautiful and primal. Then these beings projected this shape shifting ability onto my form and like them I started changing forms. This was the main gift I brought back with me from this activation.

After the meditation ended I was a bit confused as to what the symbolism of the shape shifter meant for me right now. I know the shape shifter is used as an archatyple image in story telling, dream interpretation and writing, but couldn't place more than those limiting versions to my own experience and what it meant. I find anytime I need a bit of clarity on an experience if I go to google and type in a few abstractly connected words I always get an unbelievably revealing answer (and never have to open more than one or two links to find it). Today when using this google super brain I found a link that clarified exactly what the entire intention of our global meditation was all about.

http://dreamhawk.com/dream-encyclopedia/archetype-of-the-shapeshifter/

I found that this definition about shape shifters basically sums up my past six months of existence on earth. My motto has been detached acceptance of all things. I have been growing myself endlessly trying to find harmony and balance between the dualistic parts of my being. Example: male and female, one and all. I read Dream Hawks interpretation of a shape shifter and felt an immediate bond to his words like a recent dream not yet forgotten.

My hope is that everyone has a chance to have these connection and these validating experiences in life. I pray that all souls receive the confirmation that their souls purpose is being lived out and fulfilled in this now moment. I pray for unity consciousness and I pray for self love because self love is collective love.

More to come on this in the future!

How Quickly Does Your Universe Work?

Fail Today...........

How do you teach a 4 and 3 year old life lessons? Apparently you don't they teach you. Last night was the breaking point for our family, a specific toe headed 4 year old and curly haired 3 year old don't know how to listen, keep their hands off each other or their friends and like to scream I hate you now... So moms master plan (dad kind of bought in, but you could tell was on the fence) was to wrap presents early put them under the tree and start to take them away as the boys continued their debauchery. Well life lesson #563 - do something to catch negativity and you will get a negative reaction. This am dad left the house telling the little curly one not to touch the presents, flash forward 15 minutes garage door closes and the tow head wakes up and the crime scene appears. Moms take away, if you set an intention to catch someone doing something negative, the universe is going to give you a negative incident to catch and teach from. Although the teachable lesson will most likely be geared towards you not the one caught in the act.

Dancing with Angles

I had a teacher once ask me a question about my soul's purpose. She asked me specifically how the process felt and how I received the information regarding my current project. I guess I hesitated because she follow up the question saying, when you create in regards to your purpose does it feel like you receive pieces to the puzzle one at a time, but don't know what the picture is supposed to be? I immediately recognized what she was referencing because I had recently had this exact same association with a project I was working on. I realized that in the past I had controlled situations and didn't allow this natural flow to happen. I had hoped for outcomes that I though would be best for me instead of letting the natural flow happen. When I did this I would miss out on even greater outcomes I couldn't have imagine on my own.

I reflect on this conversation with my teacher as well as another event where I followed a teacher and received her messages about a month before I even took her first class. I find it truly amazing the speed at which out thoughts, experiences, and wisdom hits the collective consciousness. We seem to be manifesting and collectively experiencing at super exaggerated rates. Think about your own life how many times are the people around you on the exact same wave length, or better yet frequency as you?

An experience I recently had during a guided meditation lead me to contemplate something that has been happening to me in my meditations for over two years now. I actually discredited this thinking it was just something my own mind created to feel more connected to my guides and angles, but now I believe there is deeper meaning.

When following this teacher through her guided meditation at one point she expressed that we needed to take and emotion we had cultivated and send it out to the universe. We did this so that the universe could experience and feel the deep emotions we were personally experiencing, a way to give back. I only realized the profound message this activity held when I found myself again seated in one of my own meditations. It has been a constant for me during meditation to experience unexplainable emotion when with some of my guides and angles. The first time I ever had a full visual meditation, and meet my first guide we actually danced before we entered into my Akashic records. We danced together on top of the clouds for minutes. I felt so much love, connection, ease, grace, happiness while experiencing this during my meditation. This was the first full visual meditation I had ever had and this happened. Now about every second to third mediation I do I am dancing and expressing myself with and through my guides. I have always thought this was something I did as a way to acknowledge a connection, or honestly to take a break from the meditation!

I now understand this to be a way to express my physical existence with my guides. We chose to incarnate onto this Devine planet, and have so many amazing physical sensations that we get to experience and feel. Our guides and angles being complete energy/light do not have that physical ability. Don't get me wrong they know the greatest expressions of love, grace, and light, but the physicality behind it is something uniquely human. I feel this is my way to connect and give back a part of my physical existence that I absolutely cherish to those guiding me. Like the expression of our heart into the universe that my teacher thought, this is a way to allow a part of our own physicality that we enjoy to be given back and shared with spirit. I am so thankful that so many around me are opening up to the light. This allows our collective consciousness to expand and elevate so quickly, I feel I have an impulse or idea and the next thing I know someone else is sharing the same excitement. I welcome all souls to embark on this journey of sharing and helping those around you because the magic of this existence is that if we all grow together, we all grow!

And So It Is

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